longtallyogi

Accepting Me For ever since I can remember I have been ashamed of my height. As far back as infant school I remember being picked to play Angel Gabriel because of my height. I didn't want to be angel Gabriel, I wanted to be a little cute lamb. I think I equated being small with being loved more, even at that young age. I remember looking at Barbi Dolls and feeling a sadness because they were skinny and blonde and of course small. When you are tall it seems to be the first thing people relate to you as. And therefore treat you in a certain way. I remember this being very confusing. People would automatically assume that I was capable and responsible. I tended to get the blame for things more. The only answer to me was be small. Stay small. Then people would be nicer to me. The irony of that. Being so tall and feeling so small. This was stuffed into the subconscious suitcase and carried around daily with negative effects to my posture, the relationships I chose, th